From 40 he began fearing
there might be something to
the god-heaven-hell theory
he'd mocked for decades

Even if it is hooey, he'd lose
naught by hedging his bet
via religion acquired late
that would assure heaven

Youth spent, he saw it as wise
to invest his remaining years
lauding what he once jeered,
to have cake and eat it as well

Of course, he had much in way
of sin he feared would damn
him to hell and, if it does exist,
he'd burn there for eternity

Such as marital infidelity done
for years while posted abroad
in military service but justified
'cause real men gotta have it

Such logic seemed fine and
even heroic as he bar-hopped
with pals who thought alike as
regards life's proper fidelities

"God, country, and Corps!"
he'd choir with them as the
priorities a bloke must have
—but no mention of spouse

After all, he'd reply to his fears,
my cathousing while abroad
meant nothing and the women
were tools to keep me fit for war

His wife at home knew not of
his infidelities and he saw no
reason to foul his nest plus
he'd been true since then

He balmed his fears that God
would not see things his way
by seeking converts as barter
to sway Yahweh's judgment

And it wasn't just any creed
that he urged targets to buy
but rather his alone as hell was
reserved for those of all others

In his 60s and more so in 70s,
his bargaining with Zeus got
one-sided as he'd awake at night
frantic that his fate was sealed

"Now, Lord," he'd say, "You know
why I had to do what I did for a
man has wars to fight and breaks
were few so I can't be blamed"

No reply . . . deepening his fear
that in Allah's eyes he'd become
Sisyphus pushing hell-bound rock
the wrong way . . . for eternity

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Sisyphus
Pascal's Wager is Blaise Pascal's application of decision theory to the belief in God. From his Pensées, Pascal argues that it is always a better "bet" to believe in God, because the expected value to be gained from belief is always greater than the expected value resulting from non-belief. Not an argument for the existence of God, rather one for belief.
Sisphyus
Dung beetle